Windmills of Her Mind

It’s not hard to guess the inspiration for my blog name – the song came to me  when looking for a blog name and I liked the sound of it. On further reflection, I realized I like the symbolism of the idea; our minds being very much like windmills on a hill, whose thoughts are moved by the elements that flow in and out of our minds and lives. The irony of the comparison in the song also struck me: sometimes our mind revolves simply in a whirlwind of a trivialities that catch our fancy – a spiral, a balloon, a clock. At other times we have a moment of clarity and our minds stumble upon profound truths or immeasurable depths. Such is the paradox of mankind… Small, simple and full of wonder; and yet large, wiser than it appears and a wonder in and of itself.

-Watergirl


Like a wheel within a wheel. 
Never ending or beginning, 
On an ever spinning wheel 
Like a snowball down a mountain 
Or a carnaval balloon 
Like a carousell that’s turning 
Running rings around the moon 
 Like a clock whose hands are sweeping 
Past the minutes on it’s face 
And the world is like an apple 
Whirling silently in space 
Like the circles that you find 
In the windmills of your mind 

Like a tunnel that you follow 
To a tunnel of it’s own 
Down a hollow to a cavern 
Where the sun has never shone 
Like a door that keeps revolving 
In a half forgotten dream 
Or the ripples from a pebble 
 Someone tosses in a stream. 
 Like a clock whose hands are sweeping 
Past the minutes on it’s face 
And the world is like an apple 
Whirling silently in space 
Like the circles that you find 
In the windmills of your mind 

Keys that jingle in your pocket 
Words that jangle your head 
Why did summer go so quickly 
Was it something that I said
Lovers walking allong the shore, 
 Leave their footprints in the sand 
Was the sound of distant drumming 
 Just the fingers of your hand 
 Pictures hanging in a hallway 
And a fragment of this song 
Half remembered names and faces 
 But to whom do they belong 
When you knew that it was over 
Were you suddenly aware 
That the autumn leaves were turning 
To the color of her hair 

Like a circle in a spiral 
Like a wheel within a wheel 
Never ending or beginning, 
 On an ever spinning wheel 
As the images unwind 
Like the circle that you find 
In the windmills of your mind 

 (Written by Michael Legrand and Marilyn & Alan Bergman)

 

What Matters Infinitely

No one looking at world history without some preconception in favor of progress could find in it a steady up gradient. There is often progress within a given field over a limited period. A school of pottery of painting, a moral effort in a particular direction, a practical art like sanitation or shipbuilding, may continuously improve over a number of years. If this process could spread to all departments of life and continue indefinitely, there would be ‘Progress’ of the sort our fathers believed in. But it never seems to do so. Either it is interrupted (by barbarian irruption or the even less resistible infiltration of modern industrialism) or else, more mysteriously, it decays. The idea which here shuts out the second coming from our minds, the idea of the world slowly ripening to perfection, is a myth, not a generalization from experience. And it is a myth which distracts us from our real duties and our real interest. It is our attempt to guess the plot of a drama in which we are the characters. But how can the characters in a play guess the plot? We are not the playwright, we are not the producer, we are not even the audience. We are on the stage. To play well the scenes in which we are ‘on’ concerns us much more than to guess about the scenes that follow it.

In King Lear (III, vii) there is a man who is such a minor character that Shakespeare has not given him even a name: he is merely ‘First Servant’. All the characters around him, Regan, Cornwall, and Edmund – have fine long-term plans. They think they know how the story is going to end, and they are quite wrong. The servant has no such delusions. He has no notion how the play is going to go. But he understands the present scene. He sees an abomination (the blinding of old Gloucester) taking place. He will not stand it. His sword is out and pointed at his master’s breast in a moment: then Regan stabs him dead from behind. That is his whole part: eight lines all told. But if it were real life and not a play, that is the part it would be best to have acted.

The doctrine of the second coming teaches us that we do not and cannot know when the world drama will end. The curtain may be rung down at any moment: say, before you have finished reading this paragraph. This seems to some people intolerably frustrating. So many things would be interrupted. Perhaps you were going to get married next month, perhaps you were going to get a raise next week: you may be on the verge of a great scientific discovery; you may be maturing great social and political reforms. Surely no good and wise God would be so very unreasonable as to cut all this short? Not now, of all moments!

But we think thus because we keep on assuming that we know the play. We do not know the play. We do not even know whether we are in Act I or Act V. We do not know who are the major and who the minor characters. The Author knows. The audience, if there is an audience (if angels and archangels and all the company of heaven fill the pit and the stalls), may have an inkling. But we, never seeing the play from the outside, never meeting any characters except the tiny minority who are ‘on’ in the same scenes as ourselves, wholly ignorant of the future and very imperfectly informed about the past, cannot tell at what moment the end ought to come. That it will come when it ought, we may be sure; but we waste our time in guessing what it will be. That it has a meaning we may be sure, but we cannot see it. When it is over, we may be told. We are led to expect that the Author will have something to say to each of us on the part that each of us has played. The playing it well is what matters infinitely.

— C.S.Lewis, The World’s Last Night